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You’re too soft. You’re too hard. You’re too shy. You’re too loud. You’re too quiet. I tell myself that everything that I need to be is in all the words that everyone around me as ever said. Don’t do this, but be this. Be that. Don’t be too much of this, but be a lot of that. Those lies are deceiving and so are your eyes. Your breath on my neck and your hands on my hips as I think about all those little things that I’m not, but I am and your lips fall heavily on my mouth and those thoughts melt away. But then again, I think too much. I speak too much. I can’t wait to get out of your presence. I hate you as much as I’ve hated anyone, yet I can’t wait to be with you. Push me away like you do with everyone. Tell me all of your secrets late at night, naked with your chest heaving up and down. Then push me out the door, tell me to leave, ask me quickly to go, as you pull on your pants, and turn on the sink to brush your teeth.Don’t look at me. Don’t even talk to me. Let me fall in love. Let me in, but only for a second. Kiss me hard. Slowly. Long and with fervor. Push me out the door. Don’t forget to throw me away. I’m too quiet. I’m too loud. I’m too shy. I’m too hard. I’m too soft.

The Modern Femme

I have officially made a proper website for my blog. There is a domain name and everything! I feel so official. 

It would mean so much to me if you could take a peek at it!

The Modern Femme

Thank you!

And I realized that I’m always going to be missing somebody, in the thoughtful corners of my mind. That I reflect too often on the things that don’t matter. People who have long since moved on from me but my conscious won’t let them slip away. My thoughts are often like quicksand and I sink further and further into this dark hole of missed connections, memories, and self doubt. 

Sam Smith

I had Brandon download Sam Smith’s album for me since it’s not yet released here in the US and I couldn’t wait any longer. Trust me, I will be purchasing his album once it is released since he deserves everything he gets.

His voice gives me shivers and he seems like a genuine guy. Plus, Daisy Lowe is his girl, and everyone knows how much I love her.

If you want proof of how phenomenal he is, just watch his cover of “How Will I Know” by Whitney Houston.

CHILLS.

Se7en Cupcakes and Martinis

Nobody loves cupcakes more than yours truly. I love making them, I love smelling them, I love looking at them and I especially love eating them. When I heard that there was going to be a cupcake bar opening right down the street from me, I knew I had to go immediately!

Se7en Cupcakes and Martinis concept is almost quite self explanatory by the title of their restaurant: 7 cupcakes and 7 martinis named after the 7 deadly sins. 

Lust: Red velvet martini/cupcake

Gluttony: Salted caramel martini/cupcake

Sloth: Lemon martini/cupcake

Wrath: Chocolate martini/cupcake

Envy: Strawberry martini/cupcake

Pride: Birthday cake martini/cupcake

I went with a friend on a Friday night after work and was extremely surprised to see only a handful of people surrounding the bar or sitting. As I know it is a new restaurant, maybe enough people don’t know it exists yet. I hope so, because as soon as people taste these cupcakes, the place will be hopping. I had both a Wrath martini and cupcake. I’m a chocolate girl by nature and if there is chocolate on the menu, I refuse to pass it up. 

My friend indulged in lust since we’re both lacking a little love in our lives and both cupcakes were divine. The icing delicious, but the cake a tad dry since it was so late in the day. I’m thinking they may have been sitting out for a good portion of the day. If we had come earlier, I’m sure they would have been beautifully moist (god, I hate that word but it’s the only one I could think of using!). 

As more people discover this place, I’m sure there will be a line out the door to get their hands on those cupcakes and sin all night.

https://www.facebook.com/SevenCupcakesMO

Inspiration

I think being creative takes a lot of energy to have, and it also takes a lot of energy out of you. Energy is something that I am severely lacking in at the moment, between work and my internship and trying to hang out with friends and family, by the time I have a spare moment, I'm so tired.

One of my main goals this year is to get my main blog up and running, with a proper domain and keep it updated on a weekly basis. Writing that down makes it seem like an easy thing to do, but when life is thrown into the mix it becomes something that I have to force myself to do at the end of the day. I've noticed that I haven't even been keeping a personal journal in months, which saddens me. Writing is my biggest passion and I'm constantly disappointing myself by not doing it more often.

I used to write everyday and now it's on the rare occasion that I have this intense urge to put pen to paper.

Promises to myself need to be kept and I promise that I will keep this more updated. If only to keep me sane.

Lulu's and Skorts

This blog comes at you today with two very different subjects in mind: Lulu's Local Eatery and skorts.

I was starving at my internship today, so I went with Katlyn to the new shopfront of the local food truck, "Lulu's." I've never had really great vegetarian food until I stepped inside this shop. Everything about it was excellent: the chalkboard menus, the mason jars of fresh-cut flowers, the outdoor seating, and the little open kitchen.

I had a "Sweet Potato Black Bean Burger" that was SO GOOD. My mouth is still watering from it and it's been three hours later. This is one St. Louis vegetarian eatery that this carnivore recommends. 

The next topic I want to talk about are skorts. Now, I haven't thought about skorts since I was about 8 and thought they were just the coolest things, ever. Shorts and a skirt? You mean, I could do cartwheels in them and I wouldn't show the world my goods? Yes, please! 

I was reminded of this wonderful gem a few weeks ago when I saw a girl wearing them and wondered where in the world she bought them. I immediately googled and realized they were once again being back on trend!

Here are a few examples of some of my favorite versions of the skort:

Target: $24.99

ASOS: $66.69

ASOS: $57.16

Is the skort one of your must-have items on your summer list? Or am I the only one who is super stoked to have this back in her wardrobe?